Homesick

 

 

 

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I just went on a 4 mile run during my lunch break today

As I was running along the most beautiful path along lake union the sun was shining, beautiful house boats to my left, the wind at my face, the city of Seattle in clear view ahead of me

I see the our most famous landmark the Space Needle

 I look up at the tallest building in Seattle, the Columbia Tower

 I also see a glimpse of a 12^th flag that now holds even more meaning to our beloved Superbowl champions- Definitely a year remember for Seattleites- a name I thought I would always call myself

But you now what I kept thinking about? How I wish I was somewhere else

I don’t know where but I am homesick

My soul is longing for something more, something bigger

Something or somewhere I can give more of myself and be broken for that what breaks Him

As long as we are on this earth, we will ache for something bigger,

because we were designed for something bigger- something better.

We are designed for an intimate relationship with God forever.

- Jennie Allen " Restless"

 

I don’t think its in Seattle

In fact, I don’t think I belong in any specific city, state or country

We are called to GO into this world and be a light for Him

Wherever that is for me , is where I belong

Whether that is Africa in June

 Phoenix later this summer

I don’t know where I belong right now

I do know its not Seattle

Or Enumclaw

I dont know

But it is true, I am homesick

I may not know where I belong but I know Whom I belong too

He promises He will direct my path
I am holdiong onto Him to lead me into the unknown and satisfy my longing only He can fill

You know what I think? 
I think I know exactly where I am homesick for- My forever home-
A place where Seattle sunsets or the Seattle skyline will never compare
A real home where I will be able to forever worship Him, forever be wrapped in His love forever

I have no doubt God intentionally creates this feeling of nostalgia for a place we have never been
He wants us to always be reminded that His eternal home for us will always be better than any home or place  here on earth

To remind us that that the only home we are to long for is His home

Knowing that my real home is with Him
Knowing that I wont be landing at a final desination but rather a path 
 This creates a bravery I never knew I had to go into the unknown
Excitement, desire and yet peace waiting expectantly for when He calls me to GO

I will embrace being homesick and embrace wherever He calls me to next along this path
Because He has promised that walking along with Him is better than we can ever imagine

I can’t wait to see what He has in store

“You have made us for Yourself, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in You."

- Saint Augustine

"Where I Belong"

Building 429

 

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong