It is a weird feeling coming home from such an amazing experience, literally on top of a mountain. Do I have to come down? I don' think I have fully actually "come down" yet just. I am holding on to those precious moments with God. Those moments where I was in total awe of His movement in my life, the students lives. Those moments of worship and being blessed by His creation. However, I was able to write out some thoughts this morning in my journal and I wanted to share with you! :)
The Aftermath
I didn't really reflect on my time in Montana. It was one of the best weeks of my life. I am still trying to absorb why I learned and continue to thank the Lord for this opportunity. My heart feels like is is going to burst with hope, joy, but also anxiety. I learned so much during this past week. One of the most emotionally, physically and spiritually draining weeks of my life. All planned by the Lord so I could realize just how much I need HIm, only Him. He humbled me beyond anything I have experience before, yet knew exactly the right moment to fill my heart again...and again...and again. He truly knows the desires, the longings of my heart. He is so good and reminds me that He alone is my strength. This past week I know was only a glimpse of what God has in store for me.
I dream of being a role model to those around me
I dream of impacting MANY lives of children and young women
Though this past week was humbling, I only grew in my faith. I learned that God is the only one who can prepare me and give me strength. I was reminded the power of dreams, desires, and longings. I have NO doubt the Lord is preparing me for a GREAT ministry. I long for a great platform to share the gospel, to show His love and goodness. I know God is preparing me for GREAT things, plans that don't make sense to those around me, but in my heart the Lord is whispering, maybe even shouting,
"My child, I love you beyond anything you can ever imagine, keep searching for Me, keep close to Me, I am preparing you for something so great, beyond your wildest dreams. You are deserving of all My blessings. I love you my sweet daughter."
I will wait in total abandonment
Total dependence of Him knowing He provides every step of my path
I will praise and thank Him along the way
Lord, let me be Your hands and feet.
Amen
Love,
Jenzie
"I am continually at work in your life, even when you can see nothing happening. It’s easy for you to feel stuck in a situation you’d like to change because you can see only the present moment. But I look at the big picture—all the moments of your life—and I am doing more than you can imagine."
-Jesus Today
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